journal:

7/26/19

5:33 pm

everything really is just going wrong.

6/8/19

4:56 pm

i feel like i should just go to the hospital to be away from everything.

5/29/19

9:42

will i ever be good at love

5/13/19

6:32 pm

ive been under constant stress the past 3 days.

he wont leave me alone.

5/1/19

7:49 pm

i am so tired and so angry.

i wish i was in a vegatative state.

religion makes me afraid.

4/10/19

7:26 pm

today my mom said that she was proud of me, it meant a lot.

i feel sluggish.

4/7/19

11:00 am

its been a little while, my bad. just been dealing with stupid personal stuff.

of course i've been active on other sites but im back 2 updating on here.

3/24/19

1:12 pm

i've barely eaten anything in the past 3 days.

im so hungry.

3/23/19

12:50 pm

its been a couple weeks and only 2 days out of all those weeks have my meds REALLY worked.

i've been getting more tired and dizzy than usual.

3/14/19

7:13 pm

went back to therapy today with my mom and talked about stuff. i am being put on meds for 2 weeks.

i hear the meds will make me nauseous...

3/10/19

9:59 pm

i go back to therapy on the 14th. my mom said they were going to be different than my last therapist.

i hope she was right!

3/3/19

6:33 pm

i could never compare to you.

2/27/19

9:08 pm

my mom set me up for a therapy session but it's a month away. im not doing very well in school and i don't want my dad to yell at me again.

i feel so sick.

6:05 pm

today my "best friend" said that i was "undatable." i'd never go out with her but it made me feel bad.

2/25/19

10:07 pm

it's only gotten worse.

2/24/19

9:38 pm

i don't even know if god is real and that honestly terrifies me.

6:04 pm

i don't mean anything to you.

11:24 am

had a bad night last night, couldn't sleep and ended up injuring myself.

2/19/19

8:20 pm

i fear that my "best friend" may like me.

2/17/19

1:38 pm

i've been really sick this past month. today it's really hard for me to eat because nothing really tastes good.

2/9/19

1:09 pm

are you still in love with me?

2/4/19

10:55pm

i hate my best friend.

2/3/19

4:56 pm

u make me feel like a total loser.

9:10 pm

i want to be in love.

2/2/19

8:32 pm

[family member] is really clingy and it makes me uncomfortable.